Depression is now a part of my life is one of the articles I had written about lifesharing.gr.

Every time I fall psychologically, I close myself off and feel like I'm getting old and not enjoying my youth.

Today, since it's World Mental Health Day, I chose not to write to you about my ex, but to introduce myself to you from the beginning.

I'm Tina and I'm fine. I've had mild depression for 10 years and I have 2 faces, maybe more.

I don't know how I'll sleep, nor how I'll wake up. I always said I owed the two faces to my Taurus and Gemini zodiac signs, but I always knew it wasn't from there, but because of my depression.

I generally make fun of everything, because life is short and I shouldn't spoil myself for anything.

Maybe now that I'm writing to you I'm laughing, then crying and then cursing, I don't know at what point someone hits me and I don't know who they're talking to.

I remember my ex looking at me and saying, "Hey, you were laughing before, what happened to you now?" and the truth is, I could never explain it.

I've pushed many people out of my life because they told me "don't be depressed," but go ahead and explain to them what it's like to cry all day, stare at the ceiling, not want to do anything, not have the mental strength to get up and smile.

You can never explain to someone else how you feel inside, you just isolate yourself and need time to figure things out for yourself.

The hard thing isn't getting back on your feet, the hard thing is that those around you don't understand you and take it for granted.

But it's not like that, because mental health is the most important, because if your soul is destroyed you change as a person and you are no longer the same, you transform into something else and you fight tooth and nail to survive.

You bring back your old self, but in vain.

The only thing that is certain is that I am still alive, that I am stronger than ever, and whenever my depression hits me, I find the strength to get up again.

I am Tina and I suffer from depression and there's no shame in admitting it, this is how we calm ourselves down more, than hiding behind our finger and wearing a mask.

*The photo is taken from the internet