First holidays without dad This year is definitely the most difficult, but also the strangest, holiday.

In previous years, we spent all the holidays in the hospitals where my dad was treated.

But, since April things have changed a lot as my dad “left”.

This year is also the first time we haven't decorated the house, which makes perfect sense, and it's the first time we'll spend the holidays without dad.

I think that the whole state of mourning personally only makes it difficult for me in the evenings, that is, during those hours when I don't occupy my mind with other obligations and I inevitably think about sad things.

During the day I try not to think about anything, but some days it's impossible not to think.

Many people don't believe that I'm in a mourning phase because, as they tell me, I haven't lost my sense of humor - if I do, then I'm sorry we got burned - or because I'm in the middle of everything.

Everyone goes through their grief in their own way.

We are not all the same, we do not all grieve the same way, some can endure, some cannot.

It's not bad to be broken and unable to endure.

But we must soon find strength & move forward.

Because life moves on & those who "left" want to see us happy.

First holidays without dad So nothing is the same, many things have changed, some for the better, some have remained the same.

If you have lost someone you love, I am waiting for your message to tell me how you will spend your holidays or how you are getting over it.

I wish you Happy Holidays, with Health & many True Smiles!!!